My own experience has led to darkness that I still deal with at least a few times a year in a big way, and smaller ways every day. I disagree with anyone who says that suicide is selfish. Sometimes, frequently, it's a cry for help - but sometimes it's the last solution for a life full of pain.

I'm glad I have the life I do today, but it could have gone more horribly in a hundred ways. What breaks my heart the most is that Mr. Zeller really did not feel like he could trust anyone based on his own experiences being betrayed by those he did trust. I am so angry about that.

I too think the world will be a better place when my family is no longer part of it. And I too stopped believing in God when I refused to put any kind of merit in a deity that would pardon my father for everything he did to me as a child. No. Just no.